Thursday, August 29, 2013

Sleeping

Do people who never marry have problems with sleeping alone? Do they even wonder what it's like to have someone in the bed?  I wonder if I will will get use to it......
I'm a huge snuggler,  a very affectionate person, I love to hug, be hugged, and love touch.  For a good year before ending my marriage I cried for nights at the fact that being able to be that way might come to a end.  I can honestly say I'm not sure I will ever get use to sleeping alone.
I have pillows and I wrap myself in my comforter in a way that I feel secure, but nothing works.  When I was dating a while back, we would lay down on the floor or cuddle on the couch...Can I tell you how secure that makes a person feel.  Not only the aspect of being with someone you love but the fact that your safe in that persons arms. I can't tell you how much I miss that.
At first, after my divorce, I didn't really miss it....when you've been in a bad relationship it kinda just goes away. But then it hits....there is no one there to roll over to and love,  or cuddle with, or to spoon.
There are more days then not that I soooo miss that soooo bad....eventually I hope it goes away and I get us to the sleep by myself.

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