Dreams

Have you ever wondered why we dream what we dream? Why they seem so real? Why they make us feel good but when we wake up they make us sad?

I had a dream last night that was soooo real I loved every moment of it. I knew I was waking up and so didn't want to because I knew it would go away.  Well it ended and I cried.

The dream felt great and made me feel so alive.  I miss him and all his amazing qualities. I look at pictures of him and wonder what I could of done different or how I could of changed it. And maybe I could've but I would have tried anything.

He's the last of the three. The one that I wasn't sure about other then the fact that he was just there in my life. They are all married.....maybe it's time to look at me. Maybe it wasn't them but me instead. Maybe I tried to hard or I wanted it so bad.

As someone once said what doesn't kill you makes you stronger continues to be the theme of my life. But today I don't feel so strong though.....