The Sun

Have you ever watched the sun set or rise? Last night I forgot to turn my blinds down. So this morning I woke up just in time go see that beautiful sun start to rise..... Man was that beautiful.  There were purples and reds that filled the morning sky. Breathtaking!
I wonder how many people apprericiate those simple things. The ones that God created.......I consider myself a very simple person. I don't require much and have little. And it s wonderful to know that simple things, like the sun rise and green grass, can make a person. It makes you forget the busy of the day or the chaos at night. It helps sometimes to put a person in check and to help them realize that life isn't just a blur or a quick flash.
Take it in and wonder the simpleness!

Stupid

Have you ever felt just stupid?  Well today I did stupid and felt stupid.  I decided to go against my brain and went with my heart and I messaged you. I don't know why I did it, but it was just plain stupid. The conversation carried for three messages back and that was it!  What was I really thinking!  My heart thought you might of been different but my brain just keep saying "Well duh stupid, what did you expect!" Over the last three months you were still you and I could smack myself for thinking it would of changed.
I wonder why people say things when in the long run they really don't give a shit!  I really thought that we met that one awesome day for a reason, but in the long run it wasn't. Just as fast as you came into my life you left. I'm sorry for being stupid, it won't happen again.

Karma

Have you ever wondered about karma? Well this week has been a week that I care not remember. I've wondered why it happens to some and not to others.  Why do some pass it like their favorite class in school and others fail and things kick them in the butt.
I have this boss that drives me to drink (even though I don't) and I wonder with all the bad (which soooo out weighs the good) why is she still here. My other boss tells me to be patient ....and in good time karma will kick in.  People need to know that she is in the wrong and know that some of the things she does needs to be carefully examined.

I miss you

I miss you.  I miss you like the winter misses snow and the summer misses the heat.  I miss you like the heart misses its beat. I talk about how much I miss you like the cloudy sky misses the rain in the drought. I've wondered for months how life is and if you're okay.  I wonder how your little family is and if things have been great with them. Every time I hear the piano I wish you were here; with my head on your shoulder listening to the perfect sound it makes. I loved you and wanted and yearned for more!  I miss your laugh and how you made me laugh.  I miss your amazing smile and the looks you would give me when I would just stare at you and your handsome face.  I miss they way my kids would talk about how they miss you and how we could only have pillow fights if you were at the house.  At the end of the day I lay and wonder where you are and wonder if the miss is really a miss.... And then the heart beats and I know it's real. I miss you more than winter misses snow and the summer misses the heat.  I miss you more than a drought misses the rain. I miss you handsome more than the piano misses the music. I miss you more than I've ever missed anyone.