Have you ever wondered how the heart really works when it comes to its other function....the one besides pumping blood throughout your body? I know first had what it feels like to have a broken heart.....my divorce!
Have you ever wondered why it falls so fast? I can remember the first time we met. I looked at you and thought to myself....'Man I am dating the WRONG guy!!!!' The whole night you had me in awe with everything. Your looks, mannerisms, the way you could carry on a conversation, to how you held your self in front of the public....how come I hadn't found you first. From that day on I was hooked. Getting to know you and what you were all about, where you came from and how your story unfolded....I was hooked. I am still hooked, but......oh of course there is a but. I would love to say that we are together today, but I can't.
Recently I thought that one door had closed so one could open, but.....Yes there is that damn word. BUT.......I think it should be taken out of the dictionary. I love being around him....he so makes me feel alive and full of breathe. One problem I've changed who I was and am and I am not sure that the life I live is something that he wants to live. We joke about it often and I have prayed that one day he will change, but I have lived that life and I can't and won't do it again! There is a reason we met and why I feel more for him then I have anyone in a long time I don't know.....that damn heart!
To you, my perfect man: I do wish things were different. I wish that dreams came true and that we could be...I wish that the dream I had as a girl of finding Mr. Perfect was as easy as it is in the movies and in dreams. But I understand that it doesn't and being with you isn't as easy as asking. I do love you and want you to know that. You are very important to me and I am grateful to have you in my life.
I wonder.....can you heal every time its broken?
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