Have you ever had your brain going soo fast that you don't think it will hold one more thing? Right now I feel that exact way. I so need to unload.......
First things first.....the opposite sex. I ended a 6 month relationship via FB. Well I actually didn't he did and I just finished my end. I sit here full of no emotion. I'm not sad or angry or hurt over it. I miss the companionship, the snuggles, the touch, and the fact I wasn't alone. I then look at the opposite end...was it even worth being together when the relationship was based off of one thing. Did he really love me like he said or was it that one thing that keep him coming .........which leads me to my next thought .....
I've have this good friend whom I would love to be more than 'just friends', but as he puts it I can't handle him. Anyway we had this conversation several weeks back about why he hasn't just sleep with me.....he says he values our relationship too much to ruin it for that one act. Thanks cause I'm not sure I could handle losing him. He is the smile on my face, the laughter in my laugh, the missing piece to that puzzle, and the rays that come from the sun. He is amazing!
I often find myself thinking about him and wonder What if.....
Second.......Why is it so hard to keep up on this house and the cleaning and the laundry and those damn dishes! I'm not an addict who watches TV all the time or sits in front of the computer all day.....its a never ending battle. For one if my oldest would stop wearing three to four outfits a day, we might be able to accomplish the laundry. The kitchen well that's a whole other post ......really how many cups a day can we use?
I wonder what it would be like to be able to hire a maid....
Well I've unloaded a little for now.....I wonder if that will be enough for my brain to slow down......
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