Stupid

Have you ever felt just stupid?  Well today I did stupid and felt stupid.  I decided to go against my brain and went with my heart and I messaged you. I don't know why I did it, but it was just plain stupid. The conversation carried for three messages back and that was it!  What was I really thinking!  My heart thought you might of been different but my brain just keep saying "Well duh stupid, what did you expect!" Over the last three months you were still you and I could smack myself for thinking it would of changed.
I wonder why people say things when in the long run they really don't give a shit!  I really thought that we met that one awesome day for a reason, but in the long run it wasn't. Just as fast as you came into my life you left. I'm sorry for being stupid, it won't happen again.